As you all know, I am a very busy college student trying to get my butt to graduation..ON TIME..in an effort to be out of school and do whatever the crap i want!!!! Now, up until this point, its been pretty smooth sailing, with the exception of minor drama and minor occasions where i REALLY wanted to punch someone in the face. But now, the middle of the first semester of my LAST year in undergrad, the SHEEET HAS HIT THE FAN!
let me explain:
in my laziness, i have managed to put off all my "senior stuff" until my actual senior year. what does this mean...the 60 hour internship i have to have done during the summer, the 25 page senior thesis and presentation, getting A's in all my classes...HAVE NOT BEEN DONE YET! I am realizing i have about a semester and a half to complete everything. stress? major.
60 hours? internship? lets tackle this one first. its the easiest to do bc its flexible. i can basically go whenever i want. so i went today to sign up, do the background check, and now i will be strating on Wednesday. there goes another 5 hours away i could be sleeping.
Thesis? lets not even go there. i have NO IDEA what is going on with that and am in no way, shape, or form ready to tackle that beast.
those aside, i also have a full courseload to finish this semester and next semester. not to mention the ONLY classes i need to graduate ARE NOT BEING OFFERRED NEXT SEMESTER!!!! what the heck do i do? i mean, im working my butt off to get the hell out of this hell hole and out into my own life (LA? Spain? the Moon" Who cares?!). totally ruining my life. but we will see what happens wwith this.
now i have told u all about my wonderful job where i get to help people and yadadadada...now..its a nightmare! my fellow intern finished his time and im all alone! and with christmastime coming up its is busy busy BUSY!!! why does everyone have to be needy??? LOL, just kidding
but now...i have another job..and a location i wish to not disclose as you will all stock me and wanna see my awesome self in action. BUT, this job is a pain in my arse and i literally am doing it just for the money. so this is what me week looks like now.....(read that sentence again, but like a pirate!)
Monday:
10-230: School
3-6: Internship
(mind you, these are both about a 50 minute drive away from my house!)
Tuesday:
8-5: Job 1
630-1030: Job 2
Wednesday:
10-230: School
3-5: Internship
5-7: School
Thursday:
8-5: Job 1
630-1030: Job 2
Friday:
8-5: Job 1
630-1030: Job 2
Saturday:
5-1030: Job 2
Sunday:
5-1030
basically, i dont even have spare time to take a comfortable dump! i dont know what i am going to do with myself. i might as well start taking up donations for my funeral. no hoes allowed. urgh.
college sucks when you're not living off your parent's money.
A.A.K.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Brain Spillage #22: GGARGHH!! Ow!
well, once again i haven't written a blog in what seems like forever, but i have been frickin busy. i always say that. then again, we all remember what happens when i am not busy (hence brain spillage #19). Let me give a bit of an update...
1. SCHOOL SUCKS! i have major senioritis and i have already missed the allowed amount of absences in each of my classes. i am DOOMED! not to mention, financial aid hasn't come thru yet, therefore i am BROKE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND, i still have not touched my senior thesis or started my internship. i am literally THE worst student i know. i hope i graduate on time.
2. WORK SUCKS!!!! you know how annoying it is to put together costumes for little kids who dont specify what the crap they want? Needless to say, there is some congruency here since at work i have also, done nothing. Not to mention me and my fellow co-worker might be laid off because the county might not be able to afford our salaries anymore. BOO!!
3. LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am emotionally drained! i got into a tiff with my best friend and sister in the same day. Then i have about a $500 bill to pay for my car to fix the stupid window that wont go down and the stupid A/C that leaks into my car. THEN...my roots are growing out and my dumb red hair is becoming visible to the world! i swear i am going to jump off a cliff! and on top of everything......IM HUNGRY!
On the plus side, I am still alive and kickin, and sexy! LOL. and i have 5 new piercings! and i got them all in one day! PRETTY INSANE! props to Julian Ganesha at Red Wave Tattoo and Piercing in Fresno. He pretty much rocks my world and is the only person i will trust to put holes in my body!
in conclusion, if you give a mouse a cookie.....he is going to make u regret living your life!
A.A.K.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Brain Spillage #21: Are you serious??
oh my goodness....
life has been DULL for the past couple of weeks..pretty much getting used to my new job, getting used to a new school year, and getting used to feeling the looming pressure of both my senior internship and my senior thesis, which i have not touched since the spring.
I am honestly starting to freak out a bit. i mean, you start your freshmen year of college ready for the world, to meet new people, not even thinking of what its really gonna take for you to get the diploma in your hand that proves you have endured 4 years of hell in order to be qualified to work at the same job you do now, but at a higher rate. Im telling you, college is such a pain in my nalgas! Lucky for me, ive gotten my whole undergrad basically paid for and even bought a car with extra money leftover from my scholarships (having a 4.0 has its benefits!). but now i am up against Bowzer, the big daddy, and apocolyse that is keeping me from further pursuing my career and travels........my frickin senior thesis.
now, i am lucky enough to attend a small private school...and by small i mean tiny...and by tiny i mean microscopic! why is this lucky? well, everyone knows everyone, and the teachers are super cool about helping and whatnot (some you have to bribe with cookies..). i am sooooo stoked to be done with my undergrad education, mostly because no one thought i would make it, much less from a private school thats paying for everything. and i wanna get outta here. ive lived here my WHOLE life, and i need a different scene......L.A. is looking good....but so is Barcelona....hmmmmm....
in the midst of all this stress....i find out that my bestest friend in the world is basically leaving me to go to school back home..............................3 HOURS AWAY! now, im not the type of person to get attached to people easily..i know people come and go all the time and its natural. but now my BEST FRIEND, the only one i have really had is leaving me! woe to me! i will miss her so! but...i must let her go so she can pursue her dreams (and her man) and hopefully in about 2 years we will both be sipping on margaritas down at the Santa Monica Pier....or in Spain...WHO KNOWS!
so, while i have been going nuts and running around like a lunatic trying to juggle everything going on in my life...HE appears. no, not Jesus....but MICKEY ROURKE! now i know everyone likes to hate on him because of his botched plastic surgeries, but i am IN LOVE! and i dont mean "oh yeah hes a good actor" love, i mean "OMG! i cant stop crying because his character died in The Wrestler and I imagined what it would be like if he was really dead" love. yeah, i know. im insane. thats what happens when there are LITERALLY NO MEN around these parts worth my time. (if you havent watched the wrestler, i suggest you do, its so goooooood! plus, u get to see Mickeys tush! LOL).
and while in my head are detailed fantasies of what i would say to Mickey if i ever met him, i must get back to reality, which today includes trying to define the parameters of my experiment for my senior thesis (which will turn into sitting in front of the TV and watching 9 1/2 weeks starring..u guessed it..mickey rourke and later The Jersey Shore)
if you are ever in the blockbuster at sequoia station in redwood city, tell Eric he is awesome. hes setting aside all Mickey Rourke movies for me!
A.A.K.
life has been DULL for the past couple of weeks..pretty much getting used to my new job, getting used to a new school year, and getting used to feeling the looming pressure of both my senior internship and my senior thesis, which i have not touched since the spring.
I am honestly starting to freak out a bit. i mean, you start your freshmen year of college ready for the world, to meet new people, not even thinking of what its really gonna take for you to get the diploma in your hand that proves you have endured 4 years of hell in order to be qualified to work at the same job you do now, but at a higher rate. Im telling you, college is such a pain in my nalgas! Lucky for me, ive gotten my whole undergrad basically paid for and even bought a car with extra money leftover from my scholarships (having a 4.0 has its benefits!). but now i am up against Bowzer, the big daddy, and apocolyse that is keeping me from further pursuing my career and travels........my frickin senior thesis.
now, i am lucky enough to attend a small private school...and by small i mean tiny...and by tiny i mean microscopic! why is this lucky? well, everyone knows everyone, and the teachers are super cool about helping and whatnot (some you have to bribe with cookies..). i am sooooo stoked to be done with my undergrad education, mostly because no one thought i would make it, much less from a private school thats paying for everything. and i wanna get outta here. ive lived here my WHOLE life, and i need a different scene......L.A. is looking good....but so is Barcelona....hmmmmm....
in the midst of all this stress....i find out that my bestest friend in the world is basically leaving me to go to school back home..............................3 HOURS AWAY! now, im not the type of person to get attached to people easily..i know people come and go all the time and its natural. but now my BEST FRIEND, the only one i have really had is leaving me! woe to me! i will miss her so! but...i must let her go so she can pursue her dreams (and her man) and hopefully in about 2 years we will both be sipping on margaritas down at the Santa Monica Pier....or in Spain...WHO KNOWS!
so, while i have been going nuts and running around like a lunatic trying to juggle everything going on in my life...HE appears. no, not Jesus....but MICKEY ROURKE! now i know everyone likes to hate on him because of his botched plastic surgeries, but i am IN LOVE! and i dont mean "oh yeah hes a good actor" love, i mean "OMG! i cant stop crying because his character died in The Wrestler and I imagined what it would be like if he was really dead" love. yeah, i know. im insane. thats what happens when there are LITERALLY NO MEN around these parts worth my time. (if you havent watched the wrestler, i suggest you do, its so goooooood! plus, u get to see Mickeys tush! LOL).
and while in my head are detailed fantasies of what i would say to Mickey if i ever met him, i must get back to reality, which today includes trying to define the parameters of my experiment for my senior thesis (which will turn into sitting in front of the TV and watching 9 1/2 weeks starring..u guessed it..mickey rourke and later The Jersey Shore)
if you are ever in the blockbuster at sequoia station in redwood city, tell Eric he is awesome. hes setting aside all Mickey Rourke movies for me!
A.A.K.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Brain Spillage #20: Boxes Schmoxes!
I love my new job. I haven't heard about a bikini wax, mysterious trips to "china", and sending expensive items to some Autralian through UPS Next Day Delivery at my new job. Although it is a relief to not be involved in someone's personal life, this is not the only reason why i love my new job. I lvoe the fact that i feel like im helping people and I am making a small but significant difference. i like being able to go home at the end of the day and pat myself on the back and say "Good work Champ!" and not "oh GOD i need a drink!"
Funny story: when i was about 7 years old i met a little boy. he had that permanent "im so happy so please dont beat me up" look on his face. he also had about as many old navy shirts as i had (which was incredible since my mom got all my shirts from the clearance section at old navy.) me and this boy basically grew up together and from that moment when i first laid eyes on his wire rim glasses and 4th of july t shirt (although it was probably september), i knew we were going to be great friends. being the incredible friend that i am, all of the memories that i have of him are either me beating him at teatherball, me beating him at basketball, or me just beating him up period. LOL. despite that, this kid was one of my best friends. i remember him always being around, especially during a very difficult time in my life when at 10 years old it felt like my whole life was falling apart... but after the innocent happiness of elemetary school, i was forced to go to a middle school where i knew no one, and was separated from the bestest friends. (to this day i resent that). ANYWHO, fast forward about 10 years since our first meeting. now, we are almost complete strangers. I barely know this kid. the cycle of life had pulled us apart and grew to be totally different people.
ok, so maybe that story wasn't really funny but heres the kicker..it gets better i promise you...
this summer ive been really thinking about my friends and the friendships that throughout the years i have decided to keep. its really interesting how many friends i have let go and how few i have decided to keep. and as i was contemplating my life choices one unemployed day, i get a call from Lyn from the county. She offers me a job and i happily accept. She also mentions she has hired another intern that i should call to ask if he wants to carpool to our first day of work. and who is it you may ask...that same little boy who ten years ago i could not go a day without! wierd how life does that to you right?
now, im nto saying we are all of a sudden besties again, but its nice to catch up and get to know someone from my past all over again..and maybe someday we could be really good friends. i am so happy to have the friends i have right now, i feel so blessed. NOVABS, you know who you are...and i love you all very much.
I know this has been a pretty serious blog, but more ranting soon to come. haha. lile i said in Brain Spillage #1, the blog reflects my life..and this is it! hahaha! michael jackson style!
so call up an old friend, catch up, dont be a weenie. you will be surprised to find how awesome some people can grow up to be...even if you are a metal head and they are a professional rapper nowadays :)
get out cha box!
A.A.K.
Funny story: when i was about 7 years old i met a little boy. he had that permanent "im so happy so please dont beat me up" look on his face. he also had about as many old navy shirts as i had (which was incredible since my mom got all my shirts from the clearance section at old navy.) me and this boy basically grew up together and from that moment when i first laid eyes on his wire rim glasses and 4th of july t shirt (although it was probably september), i knew we were going to be great friends. being the incredible friend that i am, all of the memories that i have of him are either me beating him at teatherball, me beating him at basketball, or me just beating him up period. LOL. despite that, this kid was one of my best friends. i remember him always being around, especially during a very difficult time in my life when at 10 years old it felt like my whole life was falling apart... but after the innocent happiness of elemetary school, i was forced to go to a middle school where i knew no one, and was separated from the bestest friends. (to this day i resent that). ANYWHO, fast forward about 10 years since our first meeting. now, we are almost complete strangers. I barely know this kid. the cycle of life had pulled us apart and grew to be totally different people.
ok, so maybe that story wasn't really funny but heres the kicker..it gets better i promise you...
this summer ive been really thinking about my friends and the friendships that throughout the years i have decided to keep. its really interesting how many friends i have let go and how few i have decided to keep. and as i was contemplating my life choices one unemployed day, i get a call from Lyn from the county. She offers me a job and i happily accept. She also mentions she has hired another intern that i should call to ask if he wants to carpool to our first day of work. and who is it you may ask...that same little boy who ten years ago i could not go a day without! wierd how life does that to you right?
now, im nto saying we are all of a sudden besties again, but its nice to catch up and get to know someone from my past all over again..and maybe someday we could be really good friends. i am so happy to have the friends i have right now, i feel so blessed. NOVABS, you know who you are...and i love you all very much.
I know this has been a pretty serious blog, but more ranting soon to come. haha. lile i said in Brain Spillage #1, the blog reflects my life..and this is it! hahaha! michael jackson style!
so call up an old friend, catch up, dont be a weenie. you will be surprised to find how awesome some people can grow up to be...even if you are a metal head and they are a professional rapper nowadays :)
get out cha box!
A.A.K.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Brain Spillage #19: What the McFizzles??
Oh life, how you astound me, betray me, amuse me, and sometimes even tickle my fancy. I have to say, these past coupleof weeks have been pretty great.
First off, i met the man of my dreams and now the most happiest woman on the face of the earth! (Don't correct my grammar!). I have also been employed as a full time food taster and am living the high life. AAANNNDD...i bought a lincoln navigator, a jetski, and a small island off the coast of Sri Lanka....
NOT!
ok ok. so my life isnt peaches and cream (LOL), but things are finlly starting to come around.
1. i am employed once again! the county i live in decided that they could use my awesome office skills (acquired from being you-know-who's slave for what seemed like an eternity...IN HELL!) The pay is good and although it is only an internship job, im set for the next couple of months.
2. school is starting back up. i cannot stress enough how eager i get to go back to school once august comes around. i can only be useless for so long you know. not an easy task man. im excited to get my brain juices flowing especially since this is my LAST year of undergrad! WHOOOO! IN YO FACE, all you stoopid lowlives who never thought i would make it past high school, let alone graduate college WITHOUT getting pregnant! HAH!
3. i am drama free! yoga really does the trick you know. totally makes me feel at peace and healthy. plus, after several bad experiences with bad apples, ive called it a quit and have dedicated myself to just being happy. screw drama...what the mcfizzles???
it is time for my lunch break at work...i actually get one at my new job! im telling you, it gets better everyday im here! im FREAKING starving, see ya on the flip side...and ill blog more often loviessssssss!
onward with downward dog, cat-cow, and warrior pose.....
A.A.K.
First off, i met the man of my dreams and now the most happiest woman on the face of the earth! (Don't correct my grammar!). I have also been employed as a full time food taster and am living the high life. AAANNNDD...i bought a lincoln navigator, a jetski, and a small island off the coast of Sri Lanka....
NOT!
ok ok. so my life isnt peaches and cream (LOL), but things are finlly starting to come around.
1. i am employed once again! the county i live in decided that they could use my awesome office skills (acquired from being you-know-who's slave for what seemed like an eternity...IN HELL!) The pay is good and although it is only an internship job, im set for the next couple of months.
2. school is starting back up. i cannot stress enough how eager i get to go back to school once august comes around. i can only be useless for so long you know. not an easy task man. im excited to get my brain juices flowing especially since this is my LAST year of undergrad! WHOOOO! IN YO FACE, all you stoopid lowlives who never thought i would make it past high school, let alone graduate college WITHOUT getting pregnant! HAH!
3. i am drama free! yoga really does the trick you know. totally makes me feel at peace and healthy. plus, after several bad experiences with bad apples, ive called it a quit and have dedicated myself to just being happy. screw drama...what the mcfizzles???
it is time for my lunch break at work...i actually get one at my new job! im telling you, it gets better everyday im here! im FREAKING starving, see ya on the flip side...and ill blog more often loviessssssss!
onward with downward dog, cat-cow, and warrior pose.....
A.A.K.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Brain Spillage #18: dun dun DUNNNN!!!
basically, this is what is going on...
LIFE IS HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if i would have known that unemployment sucks so much i would have begged my boss to not lay me off. It has been exactly ONE WEEK since my descent into the statistic of unemployed brown Americans. Don't get me wrong. At first, waking up late, doing whatever i wanted, and watching tv all day was great, but after day 2 i was ready to assassinate myself. i feel so useless and irritable. Even as im misspelling words in this blog, that annoying little red line under the letters is driving me nuts. AND with all this free time i still haven't even managed to get an awesome tan....
but i do have some things to report.....this past weekend. OH GOD! where to begin????
well, it all starts friday night with an A's game. (and yes they won, unlike the giants. haha. really? lost to the dodgers?? BAHAHA!). so now that i am now legally able to buy alcohol, me and my buddy javier ended up getting pretty buzzed at the game, which made Coco Crisp a lot funnier than it would regularly be. saturday, BOOT! omg! have you ever had a boot of beer? it is absolutely insane. i felt like i was gonna die, especially when it started getting all psychotic on me and bubbling and whatnot. saturday night..my party. i will not get into details, but lets say i woke up wearing different clothes, very upset, and having only slept like 4 hours. sunday..PRIDE! the gay pride parade was insane! i saw more naked men than i have in my life, but once again, the booze helped lubricate (!!) the situation and it was an awesome time. especially dancing to Bulletproof with my sister and cousin with it BLARING from the speaker right next to us. pretty awesome! i love living in the bay area...
now, i must get back to checking my dad's email. he cant even turn on the computer. LOL. urgh, and trying to find a new job. i need more moneys!! i have shows to go to, shoes to buy, and weekends to live up!
michael scott just burned his foot on a george foreman grill. :)
A.A.K.
p.s. has anyone ever loved someone, got over it, and then realized you were just lying to yourself?
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Brain Spillage #17: Life in Silence
People say silence is golden. i say silence is crap! almost 2 weeks since my beloved 32G iPod Touch has been stolen. My life has lost its meaning, and my life no longer plays a constant soundtrack. the silence has been completely agonizing! now, some of you may be thinking i am being a tad dramatic, i mean, we shan't attach ourselves to material posessions and whatnot, but nothing compares to the joy i got from my iPod.
Example 1: Driving
driving is now no longer a fun adventure, but a chore. i hate driving. before i used to be able to put together my "On the Go" playlist of all the songs i wanted to hear, and then bump of my favorite jams and scare the uptight white people who see this little brown chick belting out her favorite songs with the wondows rolled down of her blue/green corrola. (oh how i love disturbing the peace and quiet of the snooty rich white neighborhoods).
Example 2: Work
as you can read in Brain Spillage #2: Work Work Workerson, my job blows. this is actually my last week here (supposedly) and my days are now filled with emailing my resume to as many hiring companies i saw on craigslist as possible. anyone who has ever been on the job hunt knows how tedious this process can be. now, 2 weeks ago, i had no problem doing this, as i had my trusty iPod to fill my mind with sweet melodies and inspire me to write compelling emails to potential employers. now, theres just silence. i also can't watch reruns of my favorite shows off youtube, download new music, or watch rented movies off my iPod while i should be booking Jillian's bikini wax appointments and last minute nail fills.
Example 3: Being at Home
for those of you who know me, when im spending time at home im either watching tv, cooking, or sleeping. these activites keep me from going insane and having to socialize with my parents, who are becoming more and more annoying as the days go by (except my dad, hes awesome...). when i would take a nap, i would put my iPod on its dock and play my Sleepytime Mix to drift off into dream land. When i would cook, i would use the betty crocker app to make deliciousness. and when watching tv, i would play amateur surgeon during commercials, or when watching Glee (the best show ever) i would buy the songs immediatley.
Now, i cant do any of these things. my quality of life has plundered and i am slowly sinking into obscurity....
on the bright side, i went to a Giants game yesterday. one of the benefits of living in the bay area. of course being there made me appreciate my favorite baseball team. and NO, its not the Giants. GO A's!!!!! Note to Self: Next time I'm at a Giants game, I must wear my A's gear. Second Note to Self: Get A's gear. LOL
I must depart now, the demands of being a receptionist are high today. Jillian is in Washington D.C. and cannot for some odd reason get a hold of her driver to pick her up. So us, in California, have to track him down for her. Ridiculous!
theives should have their hands cut off....
A.A.K.
Example 1: Driving
driving is now no longer a fun adventure, but a chore. i hate driving. before i used to be able to put together my "On the Go" playlist of all the songs i wanted to hear, and then bump of my favorite jams and scare the uptight white people who see this little brown chick belting out her favorite songs with the wondows rolled down of her blue/green corrola. (oh how i love disturbing the peace and quiet of the snooty rich white neighborhoods).
Example 2: Work
as you can read in Brain Spillage #2: Work Work Workerson, my job blows. this is actually my last week here (supposedly) and my days are now filled with emailing my resume to as many hiring companies i saw on craigslist as possible. anyone who has ever been on the job hunt knows how tedious this process can be. now, 2 weeks ago, i had no problem doing this, as i had my trusty iPod to fill my mind with sweet melodies and inspire me to write compelling emails to potential employers. now, theres just silence. i also can't watch reruns of my favorite shows off youtube, download new music, or watch rented movies off my iPod while i should be booking Jillian's bikini wax appointments and last minute nail fills.
Example 3: Being at Home
for those of you who know me, when im spending time at home im either watching tv, cooking, or sleeping. these activites keep me from going insane and having to socialize with my parents, who are becoming more and more annoying as the days go by (except my dad, hes awesome...). when i would take a nap, i would put my iPod on its dock and play my Sleepytime Mix to drift off into dream land. When i would cook, i would use the betty crocker app to make deliciousness. and when watching tv, i would play amateur surgeon during commercials, or when watching Glee (the best show ever) i would buy the songs immediatley.
Now, i cant do any of these things. my quality of life has plundered and i am slowly sinking into obscurity....
on the bright side, i went to a Giants game yesterday. one of the benefits of living in the bay area. of course being there made me appreciate my favorite baseball team. and NO, its not the Giants. GO A's!!!!! Note to Self: Next time I'm at a Giants game, I must wear my A's gear. Second Note to Self: Get A's gear. LOL
I must depart now, the demands of being a receptionist are high today. Jillian is in Washington D.C. and cannot for some odd reason get a hold of her driver to pick her up. So us, in California, have to track him down for her. Ridiculous!
theives should have their hands cut off....
A.A.K.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Brain Spillage #16 I SUCK AT LIFE
my darlings! i apologize. I have not written a blog in 2 MONTHS! i am the worst most horrible person alive!
apologies aside, A LOT has happened in these 2 months. let me try to backtrack. hmm..
March: nothing exciting really happened in march. i was doing the usual, school and work. pretty lame. i think the only thing exciting that happened this month was that i bought a new car. i think. im not sure. im have bad memory.
April: was awful. i was heartbroken the whole month and felt like a total drag. i think i gained like 5 pounds in april. it was horrible. i wish to never relive this month or wish the sadness of this month upon anyone. heartbreak is terrible.
May: SCHOOLS OUT! WHOOOOO!!! passed every class with flying colors (not a hard thing to do when you're a genius like me). Also, i got to see PARAMORE, my number 2 favorite band of all time. it was an amazing show. if you havent heard them before, i recommend you do so. My crazy boss (as seen on brain spillage #1) decided that she doesn't need me anymore as she needs to use my salary to fuel her designer shoe and bag addiction, so I am currently in my last week of work and still on the job hunt. i applied for a job at this detox place. it coincides with my major and it seems like something i would enjoy.
hmm..what else has happened. oh yeah! i had a BABY! JUST KIDDING! LOL. im 20! come on! i dont even have a degree yet! i can barely take care of myself!
June! june is the best month ever! i mean, it starting to get warm, people are starting their tans, school is out, and it is the month that holds the most important day in the history of mankind. MY BIRTHDAY! this year i am turning 21, and i fear the world is not ready for me to be. but its alright, who cares! more deets coming on the birthday celebration later. i am a little busy right now shopping online for beginner chess books for my boss's son. yup. all in a days work.
i promise not to falter on my blog again, and keep you all posted of my crazy life. must get back to job hunting/being my boss's slave.
cranberry juice and hot cheetos,
A.A.K.
apologies aside, A LOT has happened in these 2 months. let me try to backtrack. hmm..
March: nothing exciting really happened in march. i was doing the usual, school and work. pretty lame. i think the only thing exciting that happened this month was that i bought a new car. i think. im not sure. im have bad memory.
April: was awful. i was heartbroken the whole month and felt like a total drag. i think i gained like 5 pounds in april. it was horrible. i wish to never relive this month or wish the sadness of this month upon anyone. heartbreak is terrible.
May: SCHOOLS OUT! WHOOOOO!!! passed every class with flying colors (not a hard thing to do when you're a genius like me). Also, i got to see PARAMORE, my number 2 favorite band of all time. it was an amazing show. if you havent heard them before, i recommend you do so. My crazy boss (as seen on brain spillage #1) decided that she doesn't need me anymore as she needs to use my salary to fuel her designer shoe and bag addiction, so I am currently in my last week of work and still on the job hunt. i applied for a job at this detox place. it coincides with my major and it seems like something i would enjoy.
hmm..what else has happened. oh yeah! i had a BABY! JUST KIDDING! LOL. im 20! come on! i dont even have a degree yet! i can barely take care of myself!
June! june is the best month ever! i mean, it starting to get warm, people are starting their tans, school is out, and it is the month that holds the most important day in the history of mankind. MY BIRTHDAY! this year i am turning 21, and i fear the world is not ready for me to be. but its alright, who cares! more deets coming on the birthday celebration later. i am a little busy right now shopping online for beginner chess books for my boss's son. yup. all in a days work.
i promise not to falter on my blog again, and keep you all posted of my crazy life. must get back to job hunting/being my boss's slave.
cranberry juice and hot cheetos,
A.A.K.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Brain Spillage #15: !!!
Cannot. write. blog. today.
traffic. school. sucks.
dont. get. speeding. tickets.
you. will. regret. it.
A.A.K.
traffic. school. sucks.
dont. get. speeding. tickets.
you. will. regret. it.
A.A.K.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Brain Spillage #14: Lists
Lists are a funny thing. Its our way of really organizing our thoughts and putting them in an order that makes it easier on us. we literally make lists for everything, for groceries, books, friends, invites, homework, literally EVERYTHING.
being a girl, i have one list that of course is more important that any of the other lists. every girl has this list and any girl who tells you she doesnt is a HUUGE LIAR!! i introduce to you...the boy list! no! not a list of boys i have been with, but a list of what i find attractive in a member of the opposite sex. my list has changed drastically throughout the years, and with good reason or else i would still want a guy identical to Howie from the Backstreet Boys. although some things on my list has changed, there are three things that will never change...
1. Humor: a boy must have a sense of humor, and i mean be able to laugh things off and make me laugh. i mean, dont u hate it when you are trying to be funny with someone and they just don't get what you are talking about or they get mad because they don't understand your humor? it sucks. its liek man, why am i even trying!? so, i need a boy with a good sense of humor, who can laugh at life and not take things so seriously.
2. Music ability: now, im not saying you have to be mozart or anything, i just happen to find guys that are musicians attractive. now, this DOES NOT mean that all musicians are hot, because they are not, but when i like a boy and he happens to be a musician it makes things so much better. being a musician myself its nice to have someone who understand what the crap i am talking about and will listen to awesome music with me.
3. Charisma: i need a boy with a dang personality! you guys have no idea how many dates i have been on where a guy does not really talk or their personality is just dead! i mean seriously! i didn't think one dimensional people existed! people like this bore me to death and just drive me away, so i like boys who can get along with my friends and like to have fun because Lord knows i am always down for fun!
Looks arent of much important to me, because i don't have a clear definition of what i think "HOT" is. for example, i think michael cera is hot, but i think pit bull is hot too. i think aaron gillispie is hot, but so is lil wayne. my taste pretty much varies, but i think my perfect boy would be a cross between aaron gillespie, michael cera, and pit bull. LOL. wierd right. i do want a latin boy, just because they will udnerstand me better since i am latin and PROUD OF IT! WOOP WOOP! but if a boy is missing one of those three thing mentioned above, it def will NOT work! so im praying, JESUS, send me my michael cera/aaron gillispie/pitbull/ with a hint of seth rogen. :)) if any of you know him, send him my way! lol
in other news, im in the process of wanting to consider thinking about maybe starting a band. lol. Luis and the Ruckers is what its gonna be called. but we still have to tell Luis. hahahhaha. updates soon.
cupid. sucks. anus.
A.A.K Trouble
being a girl, i have one list that of course is more important that any of the other lists. every girl has this list and any girl who tells you she doesnt is a HUUGE LIAR!! i introduce to you...the boy list! no! not a list of boys i have been with, but a list of what i find attractive in a member of the opposite sex. my list has changed drastically throughout the years, and with good reason or else i would still want a guy identical to Howie from the Backstreet Boys. although some things on my list has changed, there are three things that will never change...
1. Humor: a boy must have a sense of humor, and i mean be able to laugh things off and make me laugh. i mean, dont u hate it when you are trying to be funny with someone and they just don't get what you are talking about or they get mad because they don't understand your humor? it sucks. its liek man, why am i even trying!? so, i need a boy with a good sense of humor, who can laugh at life and not take things so seriously.
2. Music ability: now, im not saying you have to be mozart or anything, i just happen to find guys that are musicians attractive. now, this DOES NOT mean that all musicians are hot, because they are not, but when i like a boy and he happens to be a musician it makes things so much better. being a musician myself its nice to have someone who understand what the crap i am talking about and will listen to awesome music with me.
3. Charisma: i need a boy with a dang personality! you guys have no idea how many dates i have been on where a guy does not really talk or their personality is just dead! i mean seriously! i didn't think one dimensional people existed! people like this bore me to death and just drive me away, so i like boys who can get along with my friends and like to have fun because Lord knows i am always down for fun!
Looks arent of much important to me, because i don't have a clear definition of what i think "HOT" is. for example, i think michael cera is hot, but i think pit bull is hot too. i think aaron gillispie is hot, but so is lil wayne. my taste pretty much varies, but i think my perfect boy would be a cross between aaron gillespie, michael cera, and pit bull. LOL. wierd right. i do want a latin boy, just because they will udnerstand me better since i am latin and PROUD OF IT! WOOP WOOP! but if a boy is missing one of those three thing mentioned above, it def will NOT work! so im praying, JESUS, send me my michael cera/aaron gillispie/pitbull/ with a hint of seth rogen. :)) if any of you know him, send him my way! lol
in other news, im in the process of wanting to consider thinking about maybe starting a band. lol. Luis and the Ruckers is what its gonna be called. but we still have to tell Luis. hahahhaha. updates soon.
cupid. sucks. anus.
A.A.K Trouble
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Brain Spillage #13: Ax Murderers?
so, i recently came into a large sum of money, and let me tell you, it is driving me absolutely bonkers! i have to basically talk myself out of buying every little thing i want. needless to say, i want to go shopping and blow it all on shoes and clothes and HAIR BOWS...BUT i musnt! i must control myself and carry on.
in other news, i have also begun to try to figure out my dreams. i have this one reoccuring dream that goes like this...
(just a little bit of background: i have a history of sleepwalking, the first time being when i was about 8, and the last time being about a week ago. its important for you to know that having someone break into my house in the middle of the night is one of my worst nightmares. also, my sister is currently living in my house and she sleeps on the couch which is next to the bathroom.)
so.......my dream begins as im laying down on my bed. i get up at 3am to go to the bathroom, which is fairly common as i do this every night. while im in the bathroom, i leave the door partially open because i am too lazy to turn on the light and im half asleep. then i start to hear some footsteps. thinking its my sister, i call out her name, but instead of hearing a response, i hear the footsteps come closer. i slowly walk out to the living room to find a tall man wearing a gas mask and combat boots and holding an axe in his hand. Hes sort of peering over my sister but shes dead asleep. i freak out and run back in the bathroom, closing the door and locking it behind me. he then starts to chop the door down with his axe and im cowering in the corner of the bathroom. as soon as he gets through the door, i wake up.
the weird thing is, when i wake up, im nto always scared. sometimes i wake up really mad. and almost everytime ive had that dream, ive woken up in some position other than my usual sleeping position, like sitting up on my bed, or sitting on the floor or standing in front of my closet. i think its pretty wierd.
in one of my classes we have been studying dreams and what they might mean. ive been tryint o figure out ym dream, but every explaination ive come up with or any explanation ive gotten from someone else doesnt make sense to me. so my teacher encouraged me to do this next time i have this dream. i am supposed to walk up to the ax killer and ask him what he wants. maybe that will explain why i keep having those dreams. this all seems pretty crazy right, to try to change your dreams. but think about it. think about the dreams you have had and how they may be significant to your life.
dreams are creepy stuff!
peace. gum. and jawbreakers.
A.A.K.
in other news, i have also begun to try to figure out my dreams. i have this one reoccuring dream that goes like this...
(just a little bit of background: i have a history of sleepwalking, the first time being when i was about 8, and the last time being about a week ago. its important for you to know that having someone break into my house in the middle of the night is one of my worst nightmares. also, my sister is currently living in my house and she sleeps on the couch which is next to the bathroom.)
so.......my dream begins as im laying down on my bed. i get up at 3am to go to the bathroom, which is fairly common as i do this every night. while im in the bathroom, i leave the door partially open because i am too lazy to turn on the light and im half asleep. then i start to hear some footsteps. thinking its my sister, i call out her name, but instead of hearing a response, i hear the footsteps come closer. i slowly walk out to the living room to find a tall man wearing a gas mask and combat boots and holding an axe in his hand. Hes sort of peering over my sister but shes dead asleep. i freak out and run back in the bathroom, closing the door and locking it behind me. he then starts to chop the door down with his axe and im cowering in the corner of the bathroom. as soon as he gets through the door, i wake up.
the weird thing is, when i wake up, im nto always scared. sometimes i wake up really mad. and almost everytime ive had that dream, ive woken up in some position other than my usual sleeping position, like sitting up on my bed, or sitting on the floor or standing in front of my closet. i think its pretty wierd.
in one of my classes we have been studying dreams and what they might mean. ive been tryint o figure out ym dream, but every explaination ive come up with or any explanation ive gotten from someone else doesnt make sense to me. so my teacher encouraged me to do this next time i have this dream. i am supposed to walk up to the ax killer and ask him what he wants. maybe that will explain why i keep having those dreams. this all seems pretty crazy right, to try to change your dreams. but think about it. think about the dreams you have had and how they may be significant to your life.
dreams are creepy stuff!
peace. gum. and jawbreakers.
A.A.K.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Brain Spillage #12: More?
Don't you feel sometimes like there has to be more?
i mean, that seems liek such a general question, but so often we get swept up in our lives, our drama, our friends, our problems to really worry about anything else. I have become very good at that. i easily become consumed with school, work, my social life, and the future. but today, while twiddling my thumbs at work, i started thinking. actually, i was looking at a cupcake when i started thinking. hahahaha
if you have ever had sprinkles cupcakes you would know that i absolutely LOOOVE them, but today instead of getting my usual red velvet, i got coconut cupcakes for the whole office. i had mine on a plate, and if you have ever seen a sprinkles coconut cupcake it is COVERED in little coconut shavings. there must be about a million little shaving on there. and i i was like, man, im probably like one of those little shavings in comparison to everyone in redwood city. and this is just my city, imagine how little and insignificant i become when compared to the rest of the world population. its pretty crazy. i dont really know what got me thinking about it...maybe i fell asleep listening to the news on the radio or something, but really, there is so much going on. theres more to life than just us.
challenge for the weekend: its valentines day weekend, but more importantly its about love. not just stupid infatuation with another person, but showing real love. so this weekend, do something nice for someone else. buy a homeless guy a happy meal, pass chocolates out on the street, or simply treat your parents to breakfast.
the more love we put into the world, the happier of a place we will live in. love is like polio and malaria, they spread fast and sometimes make you feel oober wierd, but it changes you and kills the old grumpy you making room for a loving caring person. :) do the deed!
coconuts. people. and malaria :)
A.K.K.
i mean, that seems liek such a general question, but so often we get swept up in our lives, our drama, our friends, our problems to really worry about anything else. I have become very good at that. i easily become consumed with school, work, my social life, and the future. but today, while twiddling my thumbs at work, i started thinking. actually, i was looking at a cupcake when i started thinking. hahahaha
if you have ever had sprinkles cupcakes you would know that i absolutely LOOOVE them, but today instead of getting my usual red velvet, i got coconut cupcakes for the whole office. i had mine on a plate, and if you have ever seen a sprinkles coconut cupcake it is COVERED in little coconut shavings. there must be about a million little shaving on there. and i i was like, man, im probably like one of those little shavings in comparison to everyone in redwood city. and this is just my city, imagine how little and insignificant i become when compared to the rest of the world population. its pretty crazy. i dont really know what got me thinking about it...maybe i fell asleep listening to the news on the radio or something, but really, there is so much going on. theres more to life than just us.
challenge for the weekend: its valentines day weekend, but more importantly its about love. not just stupid infatuation with another person, but showing real love. so this weekend, do something nice for someone else. buy a homeless guy a happy meal, pass chocolates out on the street, or simply treat your parents to breakfast.
the more love we put into the world, the happier of a place we will live in. love is like polio and malaria, they spread fast and sometimes make you feel oober wierd, but it changes you and kills the old grumpy you making room for a loving caring person. :) do the deed!
coconuts. people. and malaria :)
A.K.K.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Brain Spillage #11: Pelo
Pelo. Hair. Yuck. lol
i have been blessed (more like cursed) with such strange hair. for those of you who don't know, i am a natural original one-of-a-kind freak or nature salvadorian RED HEAD! i know! weird right! every time i tell people i am a redhead, they completely flip and don't believe me! luck for me, my roots always grow faster than my hair lady can keep up with and if u are lucky enough you can see my red hair looking red and flaming next to my jet black hair. its kind of cool liking, but def annoying sometimes.
its sort of peculiar because it seems everyone in my family has a weird trait. (please note my only family is my mom, dad, sister 1, sister 2, and cousin evelyn). for example, my dad has dimples! im pretty sure they are dimples and not laugh lines. my mom has super white skin, like whiter than a white person! she actually sunburns daily during the summertime. oldest sister has jet black hair, naturally (that scumbag! lol), and sister 2 had green eyes. now what do i get stuck with....RED HAIR! it's like, really?? is that really what i needed to get. it seems a little, i dont know, RIDICULOUS!!! but its ok, theres hair dye for a reason, riiiiight?
i currently like my dye job, and as you may know, i go through hair colors faster than a pimp goes through hoes! lol. let see there was....
natural and blond
purple
black
red and blond
black and blue
blue black
jet black
burgandy
red
orange
brown
dark brown
chocolate brown
and now black and blond
its been a journey, and my hair has suffered, and im pretty sure i have less scalp than most people, but it has been totally worth it! i mean, it takes a sacrifice to be this awesome sometimes! :D
well, i must get back to work, which today is consisting of making 35 copies of a 200 page book. so it should def be fun...NOT!
love you all..
A.A.K.
i have been blessed (more like cursed) with such strange hair. for those of you who don't know, i am a natural original one-of-a-kind freak or nature salvadorian RED HEAD! i know! weird right! every time i tell people i am a redhead, they completely flip and don't believe me! luck for me, my roots always grow faster than my hair lady can keep up with and if u are lucky enough you can see my red hair looking red and flaming next to my jet black hair. its kind of cool liking, but def annoying sometimes.
its sort of peculiar because it seems everyone in my family has a weird trait. (please note my only family is my mom, dad, sister 1, sister 2, and cousin evelyn). for example, my dad has dimples! im pretty sure they are dimples and not laugh lines. my mom has super white skin, like whiter than a white person! she actually sunburns daily during the summertime. oldest sister has jet black hair, naturally (that scumbag! lol), and sister 2 had green eyes. now what do i get stuck with....RED HAIR! it's like, really?? is that really what i needed to get. it seems a little, i dont know, RIDICULOUS!!! but its ok, theres hair dye for a reason, riiiiight?
i currently like my dye job, and as you may know, i go through hair colors faster than a pimp goes through hoes! lol. let see there was....
natural and blond
purple
black
red and blond
black and blue
blue black
jet black
burgandy
red
orange
brown
dark brown
chocolate brown
and now black and blond
its been a journey, and my hair has suffered, and im pretty sure i have less scalp than most people, but it has been totally worth it! i mean, it takes a sacrifice to be this awesome sometimes! :D
well, i must get back to work, which today is consisting of making 35 copies of a 200 page book. so it should def be fun...NOT!
love you all..
A.A.K.
Friday, February 5, 2010
Brain Spillage #10: THROWBACK!
i have to admit, i love those moments where i run across something i did (a painting, a sculpture, or a poem) a long time ago, and i realize, man, its good to know i have been awesome for a long time! i had one of those moments yesterday while going through my old things on myspace. i found a blog i had written about a year ago and let me tell you, wow! i did a really good job of putting my thoughts into words, so here it is..
"All right everyone, I'm usually not the kind of person to come and write my feelings in a blog unless it is something important. As some of you may know, I recently got my septum pierced. To me, it has not been a big deal because it was something i want to do and didn't see anything wrong with. I got the blessing from my dad to do it and so i did it. Now that it is done, there are many people trying to tell me that what i am doing is wrong and that it is 'unholy.' i have even had people straight up tell me I wanted it for attention or manipulation or even that i got it because i was rejecting God and following my flesh. It's funny how people throw that out there and they say the works of the flesh are anything different than what they are used to. Wearing makeup is condoning self-loathing and vanity, so is make up a work of the flesh? Dyeing your hair is changing your appearance, and thus rejecting God's original creation, so is this a work of the flesh? Wearing high heels make you appear taller, or wearing the colors red and blue that have negative connotation, are these works of the flesh? who is to say that what someone does is sin or not? Sin is not something we do, is something we accept, just as being Christian isn't something we do, its something we are. I'm really frustrated because the people who are making the biggest deal out of it are people closest to me and people i once admired.
How can people be so close-minded? How can someone who serves a loving, caring God be so quick to jump to conclusions and condemn? 1 Peter 4:8 says, "ABOVE ALL, LOVE EACH OTHER DEEPLY, FOR LOVE COVERS A MULTITUDE OF SINS," how are we expected to love people who need God when we can't love our brothers and sisters in Christ? How can we show the love of the living God when we ourselves are so ignorant and already have an idea of what that is supposed to look like? I have met incredible men and women of God, people who have denied themselves completely to serve God, people who have learned that while the "church" is still arguing over tattoos and piercings that there are people in world DYING everyday without the gospel. And more than that, there are people in the world the church is rejecting because they are so different!!! When will they get saved? when will the guy covered in tattoos get saved? Maybe when the church stops worrying so much about appearances and more on character and what's inside!
Just how i have met incredible people, i have also met people who look prim and proper on the outside, who look like the ideal Christian, who carry their Bibles everywhere, and wear Sunday best clothes everyday. They know all the right Bible verses and when to raise their hands in church and what to say to bring a congregation to tears, but inside of them lies a character so weak that can so easily be swayed, people who know don;t really know God, but only know what they have been taught. In the New Testament, it talks about the early church and how they were being persecuted by the Roman Empire. It goes on saying in Acts that they met together in fellowship, the breaking of bread, and prayer. And God added to their number DAILY. Not 2 young people a year or every 3 months. but DAILY! so, what are we doing wrong here?
God and being a Christian is so much more that what we think and what we have been taught. Then we ask ourselves why our youth groups aren't growing or why the church is only reaching 4% of the youth in out nation! Maybe we need to stop following the rules and start following Jesus. I know when i get to heaven, God isn't going to ask me, 'Hey, how many holes do you have on your face? or 'How many tattoos do you have?' or even 'How many rules did you follow?' He's simply going to ask me, 'HOW MANY PEOPLE DID YOU TELL ABOUT ME?' That is my mission. That is my goal. To share with everyone the God who saved my life, the God who took me out of depression and suicide and brought me into His love. The God who uses IMPERFECT PEOPLE, like Jacob who always lied, or Sampson who disobeyed him, or David who gave into his lusts. As long as i love God and bring other to know His amazing love, I know I am doing what i am supposed to be doing. Everything else is beside the point."
A.K.K.
"All right everyone, I'm usually not the kind of person to come and write my feelings in a blog unless it is something important. As some of you may know, I recently got my septum pierced. To me, it has not been a big deal because it was something i want to do and didn't see anything wrong with. I got the blessing from my dad to do it and so i did it. Now that it is done, there are many people trying to tell me that what i am doing is wrong and that it is 'unholy.' i have even had people straight up tell me I wanted it for attention or manipulation or even that i got it because i was rejecting God and following my flesh. It's funny how people throw that out there and they say the works of the flesh are anything different than what they are used to. Wearing makeup is condoning self-loathing and vanity, so is make up a work of the flesh? Dyeing your hair is changing your appearance, and thus rejecting God's original creation, so is this a work of the flesh? Wearing high heels make you appear taller, or wearing the colors red and blue that have negative connotation, are these works of the flesh? who is to say that what someone does is sin or not? Sin is not something we do, is something we accept, just as being Christian isn't something we do, its something we are. I'm really frustrated because the people who are making the biggest deal out of it are people closest to me and people i once admired.
How can people be so close-minded? How can someone who serves a loving, caring God be so quick to jump to conclusions and condemn? 1 Peter 4:8 says, "ABOVE ALL, LOVE EACH OTHER DEEPLY, FOR LOVE COVERS A MULTITUDE OF SINS," how are we expected to love people who need God when we can't love our brothers and sisters in Christ? How can we show the love of the living God when we ourselves are so ignorant and already have an idea of what that is supposed to look like? I have met incredible men and women of God, people who have denied themselves completely to serve God, people who have learned that while the "church" is still arguing over tattoos and piercings that there are people in world DYING everyday without the gospel. And more than that, there are people in the world the church is rejecting because they are so different!!! When will they get saved? when will the guy covered in tattoos get saved? Maybe when the church stops worrying so much about appearances and more on character and what's inside!
Just how i have met incredible people, i have also met people who look prim and proper on the outside, who look like the ideal Christian, who carry their Bibles everywhere, and wear Sunday best clothes everyday. They know all the right Bible verses and when to raise their hands in church and what to say to bring a congregation to tears, but inside of them lies a character so weak that can so easily be swayed, people who know don;t really know God, but only know what they have been taught. In the New Testament, it talks about the early church and how they were being persecuted by the Roman Empire. It goes on saying in Acts that they met together in fellowship, the breaking of bread, and prayer. And God added to their number DAILY. Not 2 young people a year or every 3 months. but DAILY! so, what are we doing wrong here?
God and being a Christian is so much more that what we think and what we have been taught. Then we ask ourselves why our youth groups aren't growing or why the church is only reaching 4% of the youth in out nation! Maybe we need to stop following the rules and start following Jesus. I know when i get to heaven, God isn't going to ask me, 'Hey, how many holes do you have on your face? or 'How many tattoos do you have?' or even 'How many rules did you follow?' He's simply going to ask me, 'HOW MANY PEOPLE DID YOU TELL ABOUT ME?' That is my mission. That is my goal. To share with everyone the God who saved my life, the God who took me out of depression and suicide and brought me into His love. The God who uses IMPERFECT PEOPLE, like Jacob who always lied, or Sampson who disobeyed him, or David who gave into his lusts. As long as i love God and bring other to know His amazing love, I know I am doing what i am supposed to be doing. Everything else is beside the point."
A.K.K.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Brain Spillage #9: Musical Theoriess
singing. i love singing. but i am an absolute goob and get awful stagefright! when surrounded with the right people though, it can feel magical and i cant help but singing.
Lately, dealing with school stress, family stress, and personal life stress, i struggle to find things that will get me through and keep my anxiety levels down (bc if they go up too high bad things happen lol). So here are a few things ive been doing to keep myself level....
1. Dieting: being in the constant mindset of eating healthy comsumes a lot of your brainpower! once you get used to eating whatever you want, it hard to restrict yourself, so focusing on this helps keep me level.
2. Working out: now, im not a health freak or obssesed with the way i look, i happen to love myself (unlike SOO many people). working out sort of releases stress, and for me it helps me take out my anger on something productive instead of on other people or myself. plus..im trying to get into shape so i can go out for roller derby this summer!
3. Singing and Music: this is a BIG one for me. theres sucha deep connection that happens when you sing something with the emotions you are feeling. you connect with the music on such a deep level, it surprises me sometimes because ill just start crying sometimes while im singing. lately, its been "We Are Broken" (LIVE) by Paramore. the live version has so much emotion and it great to sing when things maybe arent going as planned. Music also is awesome. i spend sooo much money on music it is ridiculous! lol.
3. Coloring or DIY: this is such a stress reliever because you dont have to think about anything else outside of where you are coloring of where you are sewing or what you are putting together. i used to take ceramics in high school and i dont know if i would have survived if i didnt.
4. Lastly (but not least!!!) JESUS!: His love is really all i need. That brings me comfort like nothing else.
this blog isnt going to be very long, but i do encourage you to find those couple of things that level you out and make life a little easier to bear. its gonna be different for everyone, like my friend likes to do her makeup in different ways or try different hairstyles. my cousin does softball. so find that thing for you and share it. you will be surprised to find that there are many people who never express themseleves and have all their emotions bottled up. lets help the world be a little less stressed!
peace. love. happiness. red velvet cupcakes.
A.A.K
Lately, dealing with school stress, family stress, and personal life stress, i struggle to find things that will get me through and keep my anxiety levels down (bc if they go up too high bad things happen lol). So here are a few things ive been doing to keep myself level....
1. Dieting: being in the constant mindset of eating healthy comsumes a lot of your brainpower! once you get used to eating whatever you want, it hard to restrict yourself, so focusing on this helps keep me level.
2. Working out: now, im not a health freak or obssesed with the way i look, i happen to love myself (unlike SOO many people). working out sort of releases stress, and for me it helps me take out my anger on something productive instead of on other people or myself. plus..im trying to get into shape so i can go out for roller derby this summer!
3. Singing and Music: this is a BIG one for me. theres sucha deep connection that happens when you sing something with the emotions you are feeling. you connect with the music on such a deep level, it surprises me sometimes because ill just start crying sometimes while im singing. lately, its been "We Are Broken" (LIVE) by Paramore. the live version has so much emotion and it great to sing when things maybe arent going as planned. Music also is awesome. i spend sooo much money on music it is ridiculous! lol.
3. Coloring or DIY: this is such a stress reliever because you dont have to think about anything else outside of where you are coloring of where you are sewing or what you are putting together. i used to take ceramics in high school and i dont know if i would have survived if i didnt.
4. Lastly (but not least!!!) JESUS!: His love is really all i need. That brings me comfort like nothing else.
this blog isnt going to be very long, but i do encourage you to find those couple of things that level you out and make life a little easier to bear. its gonna be different for everyone, like my friend likes to do her makeup in different ways or try different hairstyles. my cousin does softball. so find that thing for you and share it. you will be surprised to find that there are many people who never express themseleves and have all their emotions bottled up. lets help the world be a little less stressed!
peace. love. happiness. red velvet cupcakes.
A.A.K
Friday, January 29, 2010
Brain Spillage #8: Ac!d K!ss
Amy. Me. Acid. Poison. Kiss. Passion. Perfection? I think so.
i consider myself to be a person who has already accepted themselves. i love myself for who i am and what i stand for. i think im pretty darn awesome. but a friend of mine lately started called me Amy Acid Kiss, as an idea for a stage name or alias. i didnt really think much of it untill he explained what it meant, and i have to say its pretty darn fitting.
One of the biggest things i have had trouble accepting is the dark side of who i am. i mean, we all get the thoughts in our mind to maybe do the thing that benefits us even if it means hurting others, or thinking thoughts maybe other people would find intimidating. its part of who we are as humans. the only thing that is different in every person is how well we can hide it or ignore it. some people go their whole lives rejecting every negative thought, and for the longest time that was me. you know, the negative thoughts come to our minds for a reason, and maybe we shouldnt always embrace them, but def consider why they are in our minds at that time.
back to the alias thing, i think of myself as someone a lot like Peter Parker in spiderman 3, you know when he embraces the dark side and gets all mean and stuff, but underneath that is still peter. i think the main driving factor there was adrenaline. the adrenaline rush we get when we do something out of the ordinary. i remember when i got my septum pierced i felt such a huge adrenaline rush, a high like i never felt before. being on stage and singing makes me feel the same way. and for the longest time i always pushed that down, afraid that maybe i wasnt good enough. my friend saw this.
Acid Kiss. putting some flair, some danger on something people make out to seem so innocent. lacing the passion with explosives. i think its pretty awesome.
so maybe the time has come to bury the fearing Amy Rodriguez and give life to Amy Acid Kiss. let myself live dangerously for a while. hence, i will be starting training pretty soon...for a couple of different options...
1. singing
2. roller derby
3. i cant think of anything else right now, but i really want to get into some sort of competitive sport other than the usual basketball, soocer, softball crap. i need something more aggresive. rugby? lol
share your thoughts, share the blog, have fun, live dangerously
Amy A. K.- 47! hahahaha
i consider myself to be a person who has already accepted themselves. i love myself for who i am and what i stand for. i think im pretty darn awesome. but a friend of mine lately started called me Amy Acid Kiss, as an idea for a stage name or alias. i didnt really think much of it untill he explained what it meant, and i have to say its pretty darn fitting.
One of the biggest things i have had trouble accepting is the dark side of who i am. i mean, we all get the thoughts in our mind to maybe do the thing that benefits us even if it means hurting others, or thinking thoughts maybe other people would find intimidating. its part of who we are as humans. the only thing that is different in every person is how well we can hide it or ignore it. some people go their whole lives rejecting every negative thought, and for the longest time that was me. you know, the negative thoughts come to our minds for a reason, and maybe we shouldnt always embrace them, but def consider why they are in our minds at that time.
back to the alias thing, i think of myself as someone a lot like Peter Parker in spiderman 3, you know when he embraces the dark side and gets all mean and stuff, but underneath that is still peter. i think the main driving factor there was adrenaline. the adrenaline rush we get when we do something out of the ordinary. i remember when i got my septum pierced i felt such a huge adrenaline rush, a high like i never felt before. being on stage and singing makes me feel the same way. and for the longest time i always pushed that down, afraid that maybe i wasnt good enough. my friend saw this.
Acid Kiss. putting some flair, some danger on something people make out to seem so innocent. lacing the passion with explosives. i think its pretty awesome.
so maybe the time has come to bury the fearing Amy Rodriguez and give life to Amy Acid Kiss. let myself live dangerously for a while. hence, i will be starting training pretty soon...for a couple of different options...
1. singing
2. roller derby
3. i cant think of anything else right now, but i really want to get into some sort of competitive sport other than the usual basketball, soocer, softball crap. i need something more aggresive. rugby? lol
share your thoughts, share the blog, have fun, live dangerously
Amy A. K.- 47! hahahaha
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Brain Spillage #7: Journey, The Cure, and the Yeah Yeah Yeah's
Music. I absolutely love music. There is nothing better than sitting on a comfy couch, sipping on some goodness, and listening to awesome vocalists and baaad guitar players just wail! its awesome!
For the sake of this blog i have only picked three bands to talk about, because if i were to get into all the bands i like we would be here forever. Now, the three bands i mentioned are actually not in my top 5 favorite of all time, bc they are just tooooooooo awesome to put on a list, especially a list made by a no one like me. These are my top 5:
1. P.O.D.: the first rock group i ever listened to. they opened the doors to so many others!
2. Paramore: relateable lyrics, raw talent, awesome vocals
3. Underoath: first screamo band i heard the combined actual real singing with screaming. Not to mention the hottest man alive, Aaron Gillespie is in this band!
4. Vampire Weekend: my indie crack!
5. Shiny Toy Guns: amazing blend of electronica and rock!
Overall, i have a pretty wide range of music interests. Look through the band on my ipod and you'll find anything from iron maiden to lady gaga, or my chemical romance to the backstreet boys, or animal collective to the ramones.
now...lets start with journey..
WOW!!!! they are awesome! i first heard journey when one of my aunts (who is still living in the late 70's and early 80s) had them on a cd (along with lots of abba!). i dont know what it was, but i was so intrigued by their music..their lyrics were more than "shake it girl" or "oh boy i want you" they were actually saying something...not to mention the great musicians they actually are, and their lead singer hits notes no one else can! ahhh, the beauty of the 80's and 90's. :) songs by journey i would recommend: the classic, "Don't Stop Believin" (which has been on repeat on ym iPod for about 2 weeks now) and "Wheel In The Sky" and "Open Arms"
The Cure. they came to me at a time in my life when i was getting so tired of all the mainstream GARBAGE people were playing on the radio. i was out of the country on a trip and one fo their songs came on MTV en ESPANOL! and i fell in love instantly. now, the Cure is def not the happiest and more positive of bands, but i love theim. their style is so unique, and their lead singers hair is amazing! lol. songs i would recommend: their version of "Love Song" and "The End of the World" and "Boys Don't Cry"
the yeah yeah yeah's, my first taste of wierd indie music. now, personally, im and indie chick because indie music isnt so mainstream, it always takes a life of its own and most indie music is like nothing you have ever heard before. it doesn't have just one sound. awesome! but the yeah yeah yeah's...man...where do i start! i first heard them my freshmen year of high school when their song "Maps" had gone big. I started looking into their older music and fell in love with it. The lead singer has a voice like i never heard before and man can she rock a mic. songs i would recommend "Date With The Night" and "Maps" and "Phenomena"....wierd stuff, but no doubt absolutely terrific!
If you haven't heard any of the bands mentioned, go ahead and take a listen. lets break the mold that young people only like to listen to fabricated rap songs that all say the same thing and sound a like..lets expand our minds here people.
peace, love, and happy muffin cake pie deliciousness..
Amy G.
Ps. if you have not watched my life as liz or the buried life, do so. pretty awesome tv, and a nice break from dumb blonds fighting over boyfriends.
For the sake of this blog i have only picked three bands to talk about, because if i were to get into all the bands i like we would be here forever. Now, the three bands i mentioned are actually not in my top 5 favorite of all time, bc they are just tooooooooo awesome to put on a list, especially a list made by a no one like me. These are my top 5:
1. P.O.D.: the first rock group i ever listened to. they opened the doors to so many others!
2. Paramore: relateable lyrics, raw talent, awesome vocals
3. Underoath: first screamo band i heard the combined actual real singing with screaming. Not to mention the hottest man alive, Aaron Gillespie is in this band!
4. Vampire Weekend: my indie crack!
5. Shiny Toy Guns: amazing blend of electronica and rock!
Overall, i have a pretty wide range of music interests. Look through the band on my ipod and you'll find anything from iron maiden to lady gaga, or my chemical romance to the backstreet boys, or animal collective to the ramones.
now...lets start with journey..
WOW!!!! they are awesome! i first heard journey when one of my aunts (who is still living in the late 70's and early 80s) had them on a cd (along with lots of abba!). i dont know what it was, but i was so intrigued by their music..their lyrics were more than "shake it girl" or "oh boy i want you" they were actually saying something...not to mention the great musicians they actually are, and their lead singer hits notes no one else can! ahhh, the beauty of the 80's and 90's. :) songs by journey i would recommend: the classic, "Don't Stop Believin" (which has been on repeat on ym iPod for about 2 weeks now) and "Wheel In The Sky" and "Open Arms"
The Cure. they came to me at a time in my life when i was getting so tired of all the mainstream GARBAGE people were playing on the radio. i was out of the country on a trip and one fo their songs came on MTV en ESPANOL! and i fell in love instantly. now, the Cure is def not the happiest and more positive of bands, but i love theim. their style is so unique, and their lead singers hair is amazing! lol. songs i would recommend: their version of "Love Song" and "The End of the World" and "Boys Don't Cry"
the yeah yeah yeah's, my first taste of wierd indie music. now, personally, im and indie chick because indie music isnt so mainstream, it always takes a life of its own and most indie music is like nothing you have ever heard before. it doesn't have just one sound. awesome! but the yeah yeah yeah's...man...where do i start! i first heard them my freshmen year of high school when their song "Maps" had gone big. I started looking into their older music and fell in love with it. The lead singer has a voice like i never heard before and man can she rock a mic. songs i would recommend "Date With The Night" and "Maps" and "Phenomena"....wierd stuff, but no doubt absolutely terrific!
If you haven't heard any of the bands mentioned, go ahead and take a listen. lets break the mold that young people only like to listen to fabricated rap songs that all say the same thing and sound a like..lets expand our minds here people.
peace, love, and happy muffin cake pie deliciousness..
Amy G.
Ps. if you have not watched my life as liz or the buried life, do so. pretty awesome tv, and a nice break from dumb blonds fighting over boyfriends.
Friday, January 22, 2010
Brain Spillage #6: DIY
so lately, ive really been getting into a lot of DIY stuff. for those of you who dont know DIY means do it yourself! lol. i mean, the whole of idea of putting something together that is totally yours, totally unique, totally original is just awesome. and this doesnt have to be a huge art project, it can be something simple like making your own phone covers or t shirts or sweaters. i mean, the feeling of accomplishment is worth it enough, but then the end product just makes it even better!
ive been reading this book, its call Home Rockanomics by Heidi Minx, and it shows you how to do lots of DIY with clothes, gifts, home stuff, and food! i never really thought of it before, but cooking your own meals from scratch is big time DIY! i am def a food person! i love cooking and baking and making my own recipies for stuff, or taking tradicional recipies and putting a good old amy twist on it (which usually means adding more cheese!). but seriously, this book is awesome. it covers things from pegging your own pants to making picture frames to baking a mean vegan chocolate cake! and it is made specifically for people on a budget, like most people are these days, especially college kids like me. its awesomeness.
my newest ideas for DIY
1. Making my own sweater...yesterday i accidentally got some white paint on my black sweater during art class. at first, i was angry bc this is my favorite black sweater, but then i was like..HEY..im adding character to this sweater, making it my own. so, hopefully next week, me and my buddy jared are gonna spruce it up a bit. i really wanna stencil in the word "beware" on the back of it. maybe add a trim...cheetah print perhaps. ??
2. Pegging my sisters pantalones...some have heard the stories ive told about my sister, and basically the conclusion is when it comes to domestics, she sucks! lol. i cook and do other stuff for her, even though i am 4 years younger! so, i want to peg some of her pants since all the pants she buys are too long on her (we are both living with salvadorian dwarfism!).
3. Make my own borscht/chili/casule recipe. i good warm hearty soup that tastes awesome! but i want to add chunks of beef, and loads of veggies, and tortelinis. :)
if you havent done any DIY anytime in your life, i highly recommend it. paint a picture on your wall instead of hanging posters...dont throw away a garmet that has holes, work with it...and if soemthing doesnt fit you anymore, turn it into something else. be original!
in other news, have any of you seen glee?? i was highly opposed to that show mostly bc i knew if i watched it i would love it and become addicted, adding onto the shows im already addicted to (the office, greys anatomy, ugly betty, worst cooks in america, teen mom, the buried life, my life as liz, tough love 2, celebrity rehab, family, desperate housewives.....i know i know!). but....i went online and watched the pilot episode...and i have to say...IM HOOKED DANG NABBITT! and they sang my fav song on the first episode! don't stop believing by journey! i didnt like their rendition very much (mostly bc the female vocals were excrutiating on my ears!) but i was happy they did it. now, i cant wait to get off work to watch the rest of the episodes. i hate my life. lol
well...im off to beg my sister for dinero since im broke right now.
stay pimpin munchkins!
Amy G.
ive been reading this book, its call Home Rockanomics by Heidi Minx, and it shows you how to do lots of DIY with clothes, gifts, home stuff, and food! i never really thought of it before, but cooking your own meals from scratch is big time DIY! i am def a food person! i love cooking and baking and making my own recipies for stuff, or taking tradicional recipies and putting a good old amy twist on it (which usually means adding more cheese!). but seriously, this book is awesome. it covers things from pegging your own pants to making picture frames to baking a mean vegan chocolate cake! and it is made specifically for people on a budget, like most people are these days, especially college kids like me. its awesomeness.
my newest ideas for DIY
1. Making my own sweater...yesterday i accidentally got some white paint on my black sweater during art class. at first, i was angry bc this is my favorite black sweater, but then i was like..HEY..im adding character to this sweater, making it my own. so, hopefully next week, me and my buddy jared are gonna spruce it up a bit. i really wanna stencil in the word "beware" on the back of it. maybe add a trim...cheetah print perhaps. ??
2. Pegging my sisters pantalones...some have heard the stories ive told about my sister, and basically the conclusion is when it comes to domestics, she sucks! lol. i cook and do other stuff for her, even though i am 4 years younger! so, i want to peg some of her pants since all the pants she buys are too long on her (we are both living with salvadorian dwarfism!).
3. Make my own borscht/chili/casule recipe. i good warm hearty soup that tastes awesome! but i want to add chunks of beef, and loads of veggies, and tortelinis. :)
if you havent done any DIY anytime in your life, i highly recommend it. paint a picture on your wall instead of hanging posters...dont throw away a garmet that has holes, work with it...and if soemthing doesnt fit you anymore, turn it into something else. be original!
in other news, have any of you seen glee?? i was highly opposed to that show mostly bc i knew if i watched it i would love it and become addicted, adding onto the shows im already addicted to (the office, greys anatomy, ugly betty, worst cooks in america, teen mom, the buried life, my life as liz, tough love 2, celebrity rehab, family, desperate housewives.....i know i know!). but....i went online and watched the pilot episode...and i have to say...IM HOOKED DANG NABBITT! and they sang my fav song on the first episode! don't stop believing by journey! i didnt like their rendition very much (mostly bc the female vocals were excrutiating on my ears!) but i was happy they did it. now, i cant wait to get off work to watch the rest of the episodes. i hate my life. lol
well...im off to beg my sister for dinero since im broke right now.
stay pimpin munchkins!
Amy G.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Brain Spillage #5: Rainy Dayssss
I LOVE the rain! i dont know what it is about the rain that i love, but i just love it. I love the way it smells outside, i love the way it makes the indoors seem more cozy, and i LOVE the way the rain looks dripping off of the sides of buildings and trees. im an artist, so i see things a little differently than most people would. and the rain shimmering off leaves and floating in the air is beautiful. If you are outside while its raining, take a second to admire the beauty, and not just run to the nearest indoor area to stay dry. Its real beauty when you actually take a second to really see.
The one thing i dont like about rainy days is having to drive in the rain! i mean, it is absolutely ridiculous. i drive an SUV, a black izusu trooper, and it is a big metal chunk of metal. How the rain manages to sway it back on forth on the freeway is beyond me. it freaks me out sometimes, but i know i will be ok. i have a rep for not being the best driver, in fact, i have to pay a speeding ticket this week...but the rain makes it kind of a. because one wrong move and BAM!!! u can be dead. so a warning to all you drivers who are driving in the rain...be careful!!!!!!!
you know what else is on my mind right now??? my hair! see, the rain makes me think about my hair because something crazy happens when my hair gets wet, it gets HUGE and CURLY and DISGUSTING! so, i often have to be careful in the rain so my hair doesnt suffer the consequence! also, my hair is currently black with a blond streak, and i have ot be really careful when i shower or else the black dye gets on the blond and makes it gray and hideous. so let me tell you what my retarded self did last night. i usually shower with cold water, because even if i shampoo the colors wont run because of the cold water. but last night i was freezing, and i totally forgot about my hair, and i took a hot shower AND i shampooed my hair. needless to say, when i got out of the shower i saw i had both blond and now gray chunks. SUCKY! but oh well, i have my next hair appointment in about 2 weeks, so, im not worried! :)
well, toodle loo peeps, spread the word about the blog, lets get more followers and COMMENTS!!
Amy G.
The one thing i dont like about rainy days is having to drive in the rain! i mean, it is absolutely ridiculous. i drive an SUV, a black izusu trooper, and it is a big metal chunk of metal. How the rain manages to sway it back on forth on the freeway is beyond me. it freaks me out sometimes, but i know i will be ok. i have a rep for not being the best driver, in fact, i have to pay a speeding ticket this week...but the rain makes it kind of a. because one wrong move and BAM!!! u can be dead. so a warning to all you drivers who are driving in the rain...be careful!!!!!!!
you know what else is on my mind right now??? my hair! see, the rain makes me think about my hair because something crazy happens when my hair gets wet, it gets HUGE and CURLY and DISGUSTING! so, i often have to be careful in the rain so my hair doesnt suffer the consequence! also, my hair is currently black with a blond streak, and i have ot be really careful when i shower or else the black dye gets on the blond and makes it gray and hideous. so let me tell you what my retarded self did last night. i usually shower with cold water, because even if i shampoo the colors wont run because of the cold water. but last night i was freezing, and i totally forgot about my hair, and i took a hot shower AND i shampooed my hair. needless to say, when i got out of the shower i saw i had both blond and now gray chunks. SUCKY! but oh well, i have my next hair appointment in about 2 weeks, so, im not worried! :)
well, toodle loo peeps, spread the word about the blog, lets get more followers and COMMENTS!!
Amy G.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Brain Spillage #4: Remember me..
depression...
we hear about it all the time we read about teenage statistics and common ailments found in the people of our generation. the way i look at it, depression is a lot like marijuana..its a beginner emotion. It starts you off on many other emotions and defense mechanisms like anger. i personally suffer from chronic depression, and let me tell you, its something i fight with everyday. for those of you who know me better than most, i am a suicide attempt survivor. meaning......there was a reason why i didnt die october 31, 2004. theres a reason why i am still alive. there is a reason for me being in the place where i am right now. i might not have all the answers, i might feel unsure about life, and might feel scared of the unknown, but i have to trust, to believe, that somehow someway i am being taken care of.
im not trying to force religion on anyone. i personally believe religion is dead and church has been taken out of its original purpose. i believe in a constant relationship with God, but thats my cup of tea, it doesnt have to be yours. looking for the meaning of life, higher purpose, is something we always search for, but let me tell you you're not gonna find it anywhere. im an expert runner. i run to things i know wont give me what i need, but will only numb the pain in the moment. but somehow i am so stubborn i keep running. theres a good thing, GOD, waiting me for with His arms open waiting for me to just embrace him and his love, and i keep running away. why do i like the darkness? why do i like the cold and hard places hwere i never find peace? why is it that i feel more at home in frustration and confusion than in happiness and joy? do i really feel that unworthy of true happiness? what the crap is wrong with me?
so as i lay writhing in pain, wishing i cud feel the burn of the sauce or the sting on the blade, i chose to not run. but stay completely still. im not running to him yet, but im getting ready to.
we hear about it all the time we read about teenage statistics and common ailments found in the people of our generation. the way i look at it, depression is a lot like marijuana..its a beginner emotion. It starts you off on many other emotions and defense mechanisms like anger. i personally suffer from chronic depression, and let me tell you, its something i fight with everyday. for those of you who know me better than most, i am a suicide attempt survivor. meaning......there was a reason why i didnt die october 31, 2004. theres a reason why i am still alive. there is a reason for me being in the place where i am right now. i might not have all the answers, i might feel unsure about life, and might feel scared of the unknown, but i have to trust, to believe, that somehow someway i am being taken care of.
im not trying to force religion on anyone. i personally believe religion is dead and church has been taken out of its original purpose. i believe in a constant relationship with God, but thats my cup of tea, it doesnt have to be yours. looking for the meaning of life, higher purpose, is something we always search for, but let me tell you you're not gonna find it anywhere. im an expert runner. i run to things i know wont give me what i need, but will only numb the pain in the moment. but somehow i am so stubborn i keep running. theres a good thing, GOD, waiting me for with His arms open waiting for me to just embrace him and his love, and i keep running away. why do i like the darkness? why do i like the cold and hard places hwere i never find peace? why is it that i feel more at home in frustration and confusion than in happiness and joy? do i really feel that unworthy of true happiness? what the crap is wrong with me?
so as i lay writhing in pain, wishing i cud feel the burn of the sauce or the sting on the blade, i chose to not run. but stay completely still. im not running to him yet, but im getting ready to.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Brain Spillage #3: Skool's Kool Fool!
monday, january 11th.....
i start school tomorrow and needless to say i am excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really loved being on break and laying on my couch all day eating hot cheetos with frosting and watching t.v, but after about 3 days of that, i start to feel extremely unproductive, at which point i start to get antsy and by the time school comes back around I'm oooooOOOOooober excited for it. my current school situation is a little bit interesting, so I'm gonna explain it for everyone out there who does not know!
for my freshman and sophomore years of college i went to a Patten University extension in Fresno so i could be a part of this ministry program. So, i was basically a Patten student, just in another city, 3 hours away, in the middle of nowhere, in the heat, in the valley, with all the cows! LOL. After my second year, the program closed down and i moved back home, home being REDWOOD CITY!!! woot woot! This of course meant i was going to be back in the SF bay area, the place of my origins. Patten University happens to be located in Oakland, so i could easily live at home and commute without a problem! now for those of you who do NOT know the bay area, this is where it gets tricky. I live in Redwood City, lets name this point A. I work in Palo Alto, at least 3 hours everyday, and that is about 20 minutes south of point A. Let's call that point B. Patten University is about 45 minutes away from point A, which makes it an hour and 5 minutes away from point B. That's A CRAPLOAD or driving time! and the fact i drive an SUV doesn't make it cheap on gas!!! Lucky for me my advisor only gave me classes 3 days a week so i can work 2 full days and 3 half days. pretty cool right! :)
i really love my major (clinical psychology!) and i really love every class Ive had to take to get closer to my degree. and this semester I'm taking an art class, thanks to my friend Jared Ray since he talked me into it, even though it was something Ive wanted to do. you see, there are 2 very different almost opposite sides of me! one side wants to get my degree in clinical psychology, work in the jail system, and eventually start my own practice. The other side of me wants to get my degree, then go to culinary school, open a restaurant where i can cook the foods i love and my friends can display their art and music. Sounds awesome right? Maybe i can do both! why not! therapist by day...restaurant owner on nights and weekends! sounds awesome to me! :))
well, as you may know i am at work, and it is coming close to that time where i have to go move my car. LOL. ill have a new blog up every monday, wednesday, and friday. hopefully. unless i have major work to do or some big assignment for school (since i am working on my senior thesis..getting a head start!). I love you all, and please share the word with the people you know! the more readers the better. We can get more conversations going! woop woop. party hardy blarty carty! haha!
Peace out. good riddance. aloha. bleh.
Amy G.
i start school tomorrow and needless to say i am excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really loved being on break and laying on my couch all day eating hot cheetos with frosting and watching t.v, but after about 3 days of that, i start to feel extremely unproductive, at which point i start to get antsy and by the time school comes back around I'm oooooOOOOooober excited for it. my current school situation is a little bit interesting, so I'm gonna explain it for everyone out there who does not know!
for my freshman and sophomore years of college i went to a Patten University extension in Fresno so i could be a part of this ministry program. So, i was basically a Patten student, just in another city, 3 hours away, in the middle of nowhere, in the heat, in the valley, with all the cows! LOL. After my second year, the program closed down and i moved back home, home being REDWOOD CITY!!! woot woot! This of course meant i was going to be back in the SF bay area, the place of my origins. Patten University happens to be located in Oakland, so i could easily live at home and commute without a problem! now for those of you who do NOT know the bay area, this is where it gets tricky. I live in Redwood City, lets name this point A. I work in Palo Alto, at least 3 hours everyday, and that is about 20 minutes south of point A. Let's call that point B. Patten University is about 45 minutes away from point A, which makes it an hour and 5 minutes away from point B. That's A CRAPLOAD or driving time! and the fact i drive an SUV doesn't make it cheap on gas!!! Lucky for me my advisor only gave me classes 3 days a week so i can work 2 full days and 3 half days. pretty cool right! :)
i really love my major (clinical psychology!) and i really love every class Ive had to take to get closer to my degree. and this semester I'm taking an art class, thanks to my friend Jared Ray since he talked me into it, even though it was something Ive wanted to do. you see, there are 2 very different almost opposite sides of me! one side wants to get my degree in clinical psychology, work in the jail system, and eventually start my own practice. The other side of me wants to get my degree, then go to culinary school, open a restaurant where i can cook the foods i love and my friends can display their art and music. Sounds awesome right? Maybe i can do both! why not! therapist by day...restaurant owner on nights and weekends! sounds awesome to me! :))
well, as you may know i am at work, and it is coming close to that time where i have to go move my car. LOL. ill have a new blog up every monday, wednesday, and friday. hopefully. unless i have major work to do or some big assignment for school (since i am working on my senior thesis..getting a head start!). I love you all, and please share the word with the people you know! the more readers the better. We can get more conversations going! woop woop. party hardy blarty carty! haha!
Peace out. good riddance. aloha. bleh.
Amy G.
Friday, January 8, 2010
Brain Spillage #2: Worky Work Work Workerson
oh my goodness...
for everyone who has a short attention span like me, you totally understand my problem. and my current job absolutely KILLS me, but its easy and a pretty good job overall. Lemme give you the run down...
I work at Manus and Associates Literary Agency (http://www.manuslit.com/). They are a group of agents who help authors get publishing deals. Or at least thats what it says on the website. In reality, its a group of 4 middle aged women who come into the office and complain all day about their lazy husbands, their ex husbands, and their lives in general. My boss, Jillian Manus (if you go on the website there;s a picture of her) she is slightly PSYCHOTIC!!! ok, ok, its not that bad, they do get a lot of crazy submissions and crazy authors trying to publish books on time travel, but they do work hard to publish the good ones. They are talented smart women, but MAN can they talk!
The highlights of my job are the following: opening mail and packages, sending out pass letters (these are letters that Jillian had printed out in STACKS that we send out to the authors the agents decide not to take on. Basically, a letter that says: "Thanks, but no thanks." Ahhh, the beauty of crushing someone's dreams!), putting water bottles in the fridge, answering phone calls, and every now and then going on ridiculous missions for Jillian, such as tracking down 4 extra snuggies when they are already back ordered or making numerous hair appointments or purchasing prada shoes through the phone.
The thing is, Jillian's crazy antics make my job interesting, since i get to read all her emails because i always have to be up to speed on whats going on. The problem is.....Jillian almost NEVER comes in, but when she does, its mayhem! She's always at a meeting, an appointment, or spending time with her family, which means we basically run everything else. Me and her personal assistant, Theresa, who has mastered the fine art of freaking out! The other 2 women, Penny and Dena, are just blah. Although when it's just me and Penny in the office, she likes to belt out Christmas carols and songs from the 70's! Pretty awesome.
Now, why would i continue working in this place when its obviously unpredictable, kinda boring at times (mondays and fridays..Jillian is MIA all day), and doesnt pay very much? Two reasons: one, i get flexibility. I can work out my work schedule around my school schedule and do homework here when i have nothing else to do. Two, the awesome presents Jillian gives! I've been here for almost 6 months and i have gotten: a juicy couture perfume, a prada shawl, a collection of fine tea, lotions and face wash, cookies, and for christmas i got an iPod touch, a wall charger, 2 Comfys (the expensive higher quality version of a snuggie), and $200. And i have to admit, the gossip is pretty interesting too.
All in all, while most of my days are spent on facebook ro reading Perez, i seem to like my unpredictable job. Oh, and did i mention for the holiday season me and my predecessor as receptionist had to wrap 50 Comfys, 50 tote bags, put them together in packages, wrap the whole thing in postal papaer, and make UPS labels for all of them in ONE day??! And today i had to go to Stanford Mall and pick up the Prada Coat Jillian ordered and somehow prove i worked for her to this crazy little dude there. But then i think about the beauty of watching Family Guy and Saturday Night Live on my iPod, and all of a sudden, it all seems worth it..at least...for now. :)
well..gotta run. I have to move my car every 2 hours or else i'll get a parking ticket since the City of Palo Alto has decided that they hate having cars parked for more than 2 hours on their streets! Nonsense i say!
Hopefully this little tidbit has given you a little bit more appreciation for your job, or jealousy of mine. And if you don't have a job, then get off your lazy bum and get to it!!!
Stay classy. Rock on. Party people. Hooray.
Amy G.
for everyone who has a short attention span like me, you totally understand my problem. and my current job absolutely KILLS me, but its easy and a pretty good job overall. Lemme give you the run down...
I work at Manus and Associates Literary Agency (http://www.manuslit.com/). They are a group of agents who help authors get publishing deals. Or at least thats what it says on the website. In reality, its a group of 4 middle aged women who come into the office and complain all day about their lazy husbands, their ex husbands, and their lives in general. My boss, Jillian Manus (if you go on the website there;s a picture of her) she is slightly PSYCHOTIC!!! ok, ok, its not that bad, they do get a lot of crazy submissions and crazy authors trying to publish books on time travel, but they do work hard to publish the good ones. They are talented smart women, but MAN can they talk!
The highlights of my job are the following: opening mail and packages, sending out pass letters (these are letters that Jillian had printed out in STACKS that we send out to the authors the agents decide not to take on. Basically, a letter that says: "Thanks, but no thanks." Ahhh, the beauty of crushing someone's dreams!), putting water bottles in the fridge, answering phone calls, and every now and then going on ridiculous missions for Jillian, such as tracking down 4 extra snuggies when they are already back ordered or making numerous hair appointments or purchasing prada shoes through the phone.
The thing is, Jillian's crazy antics make my job interesting, since i get to read all her emails because i always have to be up to speed on whats going on. The problem is.....Jillian almost NEVER comes in, but when she does, its mayhem! She's always at a meeting, an appointment, or spending time with her family, which means we basically run everything else. Me and her personal assistant, Theresa, who has mastered the fine art of freaking out! The other 2 women, Penny and Dena, are just blah. Although when it's just me and Penny in the office, she likes to belt out Christmas carols and songs from the 70's! Pretty awesome.
Now, why would i continue working in this place when its obviously unpredictable, kinda boring at times (mondays and fridays..Jillian is MIA all day), and doesnt pay very much? Two reasons: one, i get flexibility. I can work out my work schedule around my school schedule and do homework here when i have nothing else to do. Two, the awesome presents Jillian gives! I've been here for almost 6 months and i have gotten: a juicy couture perfume, a prada shawl, a collection of fine tea, lotions and face wash, cookies, and for christmas i got an iPod touch, a wall charger, 2 Comfys (the expensive higher quality version of a snuggie), and $200. And i have to admit, the gossip is pretty interesting too.
All in all, while most of my days are spent on facebook ro reading Perez, i seem to like my unpredictable job. Oh, and did i mention for the holiday season me and my predecessor as receptionist had to wrap 50 Comfys, 50 tote bags, put them together in packages, wrap the whole thing in postal papaer, and make UPS labels for all of them in ONE day??! And today i had to go to Stanford Mall and pick up the Prada Coat Jillian ordered and somehow prove i worked for her to this crazy little dude there. But then i think about the beauty of watching Family Guy and Saturday Night Live on my iPod, and all of a sudden, it all seems worth it..at least...for now. :)
well..gotta run. I have to move my car every 2 hours or else i'll get a parking ticket since the City of Palo Alto has decided that they hate having cars parked for more than 2 hours on their streets! Nonsense i say!
Hopefully this little tidbit has given you a little bit more appreciation for your job, or jealousy of mine. And if you don't have a job, then get off your lazy bum and get to it!!!
Stay classy. Rock on. Party people. Hooray.
Amy G.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Brain Spillage #1
Hello there avid readers..or people who are bored and looking for something to do to kill time. Who ever you may be, Welcome to my blog. It's not intended to be something completely superficial, but also nothing completely deep. I like to think of it as a jambalaya of thoughts..and for those of you who know me i like to make a lot of food analogies. :) so join me in my journey of trying to figure out my life for 2010, and if you like what i write pass it on. Lets have some fun! Rock on! Whoop Whoop!
Well, first order of business, "its 2010!! i cant believe it!"...... how many of you are sick and tired of hearing that phrase! i definitely am! i mean, ok, it is 2010, but we have gone through new years MANY times in our lives and as a 20 year old, its still the same ol same ol. But instead of focusing on the fact that we are in the last year of a decade, i want to focus on cleaning my life up a bit and tying up loose ends. I seem to have things together, but the reality is i dont. and at the end of 2009 i found myself feeling very confused...about school, my social life, my love life, and everything else really. this is where my blog idea began. maybe if i wasnt the only one having to process the crap i go through i can get through it easier. what do you think?
whats really on my mind these days is this...
WHAT THE CRAP DO YOU DO WITH AN EX BOYFRIEND???? i mean, you are never really friends, but i cant pretend to be strangers because you already know so much about each other. so, where the crap do they fit in your life? let me tell you a story...
there once was a very naive, and awesome, 16 year old who fell in love with a boy. 2 years later, after many laughs, tears, and inappropriate behavior, he broke her heart in an effort to try to cut himself out of her life to not get in her way in the future. so...there was lies, deciet, and hurtful things said leading up to a relationship that although it was over, never really had closure. Now, they havent seen each other since their breakup, and now its been 4 years since the event. Do you think seeing each other would bring closure? Does absence make the heart grow fonder or does the distance have an "out of sight out of mind" effect? help!
(in case you didnt notice...i was talking about me...and if you really didnt know that man, maybe you should find a less complex blog to read! oh jk jk!)
on the bright side...things that are making me happy at this time are 2 different things..
1. my new ipod touch (given to me by my awesome amazing boss)
2. my new smashbox gel eyeliner (any classy girl should own one)
that remind me of my new years resolutions..feel free to share yours!
1. BE MORE CLASSY
-im known for being ghetto and so latin! lol..but i really want to be more classy. mostly because classy women are more beautiful that trashy ones.
2. LET MY HAIR GROW
-it has been virtually the same length for 3 years...time to grow out my afro!
3. GET SOME EXERCISE
-for those who know me know my weight isnt a big deal to me, but i do want to get at least a walk or jog in every week. but so i dont become morbidly obese and not able to see my feet!! that would suck because i wear cute shoes! :)
4. STICK WITH THIS BLOG
-now this first one is exceptionally long because it is my first one, but others will be short and maybe even deeper and longer. who knows? just how life is unpredictable this blog will be too. i will try my best to give you as much info as a i can, to give you a clear perspective. i always seem to quit everything i start in my life, and i am determined to stick with this!
well...this has been installment numero uno! i love you all lots and share the love.
stay classy...erg..internet peoples.
Amy G.
Well, first order of business, "its 2010!! i cant believe it!"...... how many of you are sick and tired of hearing that phrase! i definitely am! i mean, ok, it is 2010, but we have gone through new years MANY times in our lives and as a 20 year old, its still the same ol same ol. But instead of focusing on the fact that we are in the last year of a decade, i want to focus on cleaning my life up a bit and tying up loose ends. I seem to have things together, but the reality is i dont. and at the end of 2009 i found myself feeling very confused...about school, my social life, my love life, and everything else really. this is where my blog idea began. maybe if i wasnt the only one having to process the crap i go through i can get through it easier. what do you think?
whats really on my mind these days is this...
WHAT THE CRAP DO YOU DO WITH AN EX BOYFRIEND???? i mean, you are never really friends, but i cant pretend to be strangers because you already know so much about each other. so, where the crap do they fit in your life? let me tell you a story...
there once was a very naive, and awesome, 16 year old who fell in love with a boy. 2 years later, after many laughs, tears, and inappropriate behavior, he broke her heart in an effort to try to cut himself out of her life to not get in her way in the future. so...there was lies, deciet, and hurtful things said leading up to a relationship that although it was over, never really had closure. Now, they havent seen each other since their breakup, and now its been 4 years since the event. Do you think seeing each other would bring closure? Does absence make the heart grow fonder or does the distance have an "out of sight out of mind" effect? help!
(in case you didnt notice...i was talking about me...and if you really didnt know that man, maybe you should find a less complex blog to read! oh jk jk!)
on the bright side...things that are making me happy at this time are 2 different things..
1. my new ipod touch (given to me by my awesome amazing boss)
2. my new smashbox gel eyeliner (any classy girl should own one)
that remind me of my new years resolutions..feel free to share yours!
1. BE MORE CLASSY
-im known for being ghetto and so latin! lol..but i really want to be more classy. mostly because classy women are more beautiful that trashy ones.
2. LET MY HAIR GROW
-it has been virtually the same length for 3 years...time to grow out my afro!
3. GET SOME EXERCISE
-for those who know me know my weight isnt a big deal to me, but i do want to get at least a walk or jog in every week. but so i dont become morbidly obese and not able to see my feet!! that would suck because i wear cute shoes! :)
4. STICK WITH THIS BLOG
-now this first one is exceptionally long because it is my first one, but others will be short and maybe even deeper and longer. who knows? just how life is unpredictable this blog will be too. i will try my best to give you as much info as a i can, to give you a clear perspective. i always seem to quit everything i start in my life, and i am determined to stick with this!
well...this has been installment numero uno! i love you all lots and share the love.
stay classy...erg..internet peoples.
Amy G.
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