Amy. Me. Acid. Poison. Kiss. Passion. Perfection? I think so.
i consider myself to be a person who has already accepted themselves. i love myself for who i am and what i stand for. i think im pretty darn awesome. but a friend of mine lately started called me Amy Acid Kiss, as an idea for a stage name or alias. i didnt really think much of it untill he explained what it meant, and i have to say its pretty darn fitting.
One of the biggest things i have had trouble accepting is the dark side of who i am. i mean, we all get the thoughts in our mind to maybe do the thing that benefits us even if it means hurting others, or thinking thoughts maybe other people would find intimidating. its part of who we are as humans. the only thing that is different in every person is how well we can hide it or ignore it. some people go their whole lives rejecting every negative thought, and for the longest time that was me. you know, the negative thoughts come to our minds for a reason, and maybe we shouldnt always embrace them, but def consider why they are in our minds at that time.
back to the alias thing, i think of myself as someone a lot like Peter Parker in spiderman 3, you know when he embraces the dark side and gets all mean and stuff, but underneath that is still peter. i think the main driving factor there was adrenaline. the adrenaline rush we get when we do something out of the ordinary. i remember when i got my septum pierced i felt such a huge adrenaline rush, a high like i never felt before. being on stage and singing makes me feel the same way. and for the longest time i always pushed that down, afraid that maybe i wasnt good enough. my friend saw this.
Acid Kiss. putting some flair, some danger on something people make out to seem so innocent. lacing the passion with explosives. i think its pretty awesome.
so maybe the time has come to bury the fearing Amy Rodriguez and give life to Amy Acid Kiss. let myself live dangerously for a while. hence, i will be starting training pretty soon...for a couple of different options...
1. singing
2. roller derby
3. i cant think of anything else right now, but i really want to get into some sort of competitive sport other than the usual basketball, soocer, softball crap. i need something more aggresive. rugby? lol
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